I’m feeling a lot of love and openness today. The rise and fall of ease. And the ease beneath that, the wave and the ocean.
I wrote those words earlier today to my beloved. It was after responding to an online discussion for a course I’m taking with Saniel Bonder about living in what he calls the Core Wound. It’s a way of talking about the difficulty at the core of our being in living our divinely human paradox, being both form and formlessness, finite and infinite. Living what Saniel calls the spirit/matter split.
Living the dharma that Saniel and his circle of founding teachers have manifested comes to living in and as this Core Wound. A life of apparently unending dropping into and merging with our own individual realization of the Core Wound. Our core issues and conditioned patterns.
As I continue to drop, rappelling down the spider web of Being, I come up against my own particular issues. And today I landed in an awareness about myself that is captured in the title of this post. It draws on and deepens the non-dual teaching about the wave and the ocean.
In my case, I happen to be wired with what is called in Human Design as an emotional wave. My emotions come up organically out of the ocean of my Being. This sounds obvious and self-evident as I write it, but it landed in me quite profoundly and surprisingly just a while ago.
The way I experience the Core Wound, my frequent sense of discomfort mediated by an underlying wellness of Being is the way the wave arises from the ocean. Tsunami or wavelet, their source is the same. Under the wave there is always the ocean. Within the ocean is the wave.
Being is everything. We flow like water in its myriad forms: mist, rain, hail, ice, snow, rain, river, stream, lake, bay, sea, wave and surface and depth. When we stop looking for ourselves, we land in this realization that we are in all and all is in us.